I'm on a long, tight road

14/10/2010, Istanbul - Turkey (map)

The time to leave has come. In a few hours I will take a flight to Rome. Istanbul will remain behind. I am leaving Turkey, my time here, for now, is over. I feel like I am going back to Rome not since I moved here, but since one day I just came here for a visit, a few months before moving here. Because after that trip actually the idea of moving here started growing. I remember that I was about to lose the flight and I remember I could not find the key to open my post-box where the flight ticket was (I could see it, but not take it). So I forced the lock, I rescued my ticket and I ran just in time to the airport. Sometimes I feel like this stay in Istanbul was always like forcing. Like if the lock was closed and I didn't have the key. But still I was there to see what was inside. So I forced it.
Who knows? Maybe sometimes things must simply be forced. If I think of all the traps I found on my road in these last 2 years, my friends, that's enough reasons to be happy to be alive. And still I am going on my road. The road "tight and long", "night and day I am going".
Here's a turkish song that contains one of the most amazing things I have learnt here in Turkey. I dedicate it to all those I met here in these last 23 months. Those who have gone forever, those who have just gone, those who have gone and maybe will come back, those who just came into this world 2 days ago.
"Uzun ince bir yoldayım", by Aşık Veysel.

LISTEN HERE TO THE ORIGINAL VERSION.

LISTEN HERE TO ANOTHER COOL VERSION.

<<Uzun ince bir yoldayım
Gidiyorum gündüz gece
Bilmiyorum ne haldayım
Gidiyorum gündüz gece
Dünyaya geldiğim anda
Yürüdüm aynı zamanda
İki kapılı bir handa
Gidiyorum gündüz gece
Uykuda dahi yürüyom
Kalkmaya sebep arıyom
Gidenleri hep görüyom
Gidiyorum gündüz gece
Kırk dokuz yıl bu yollarda
Ovada dağda çöllerde
Düşmüşüm gurbet ellerde
Gidiyorum gündüz gece
Düşünülürse derince
Irak görünür görünce
Yol bir dakka miktarınca
Gidiyorum gündüz gece
Şaşar Veysel işbu hâle
Gâh ağlaya gâhi güle
Yetişmek için menzile
Gidiyorum gündüz gece>>.

<<I'm on a long, tight road
I'm walking on, day and night.
I've lost my sense of self.
I'm walking on, day and night,
Day and night, day and night,
Day and night.
Ever since the moment I came into this world,
I was walking from the very beginning.
In a caravansary with only two doors.
I'm walking on, day and night,
Day and night, day and night,
Day and night.
In a caravansary with only two doors.
I'm walking on, day and night,
Day and night, day and night,
Day and night.
When contemplated deeply,
It seems far away, when looked at.
The road is but a minute long.
I'm walking on, day and night,
Day and night, day and night,
Day and night.
The road is but a minute long.
I'm walking on, day and night,
Day and night, day and night,
Day and night.
Veysel is confused in this state,
Sometimes crying, sometimes laughing,
On the road to reach my destination.
I'm walking on, day and night,
Day and night, day and night,
Day and night.
On the road to reach my destination.
I'm walking on, day and night,
Day and night, day and night,
Day and night>>.

Here above, a windy day in Istanbul.

Here above, Paco. He came to visit me at the beginning of september. We spent real nice moments and I was so happy for his visit. Here some picture never uploaded before.