From the cold fields of olive trees in Adelfia to the nice cold gardens in Neukölln. It's not easy to summarize what happened between. I feel like I am living without breath, dancing on the railways turnouts, running fast, without exactly knowing where I am going. It is not that I don't have clear ideas of what I would do. Oh, clear ideas I have a lot. But many things seem out of my control. But still I am dancing, because the run is fast and the chance to turn suddenly direction is so high.
In a few hours I will take a flight back to Istanbul after 5 weeks. Things there have changed a lot. I don't have a place, for instance. But some good friend will host me. Then some people decided to go, to get out of my life. Farewell, in any case.
Probably I will watch the city for the first time as a place which could be not mine anymore. Maybe I will feel a stranger, and it would be the first time after so long. I don't know. Maybe I will watch Istanbul as a love to conquer again and for this reason she will seem even more beautiful to me. Since november 2008 I have never spent so much time far from Istanbul. In any case, this 5 weeks trip through Europe signs the end of an era and a new beginning. Every new beginning is marked by a big backpack full of stuff. Like a turtle I am back to live with all of my things on my shoulders, changing bed every few days, dreaming of a roots ground that maybe really doesn't exist.
I had 2 songs in my mind in these weeks. There's one thing which unites both of them: a kind of relaxed fatalism. They are both old songs from 2 great Italian songwriters, Fabrizio De Andrè and Paolo Conte.
LISTEN HERE "Amore che vieni, amore che vai", Fabrizio De Andrè.
<<Quei giorni perduti a rincorrere il vento
a chiederci un bacio e volerne altri cento
un giorno qualunque li ricorderai
amore che fuggi da me tornerai
un giorno qualunque ti ricorderai
amore che fuggi da me tornerai
e tu che con gli occhi di un altro colore
mi dici le stesse parole d'amore
fra un mese fra un anno scordate le avrai
amore che vieni da me fuggirai
fra un mese fra un anno scordate le avrai
amore che vieni da me fuggirai
venuto dal sole o da spiagge gelate
perduto in novembre o col vento d'estate
io t' ho amato sempre , non t' ho amato mai
amore che vieni , amore che vai
io t' ho amato sempre , non t' ho amato mai
amore che vieni , amore che vai>>.
"Love you come, love you go".
<<Those days lost chasing the wind
to ask for a kiss and wanting another hundred
one day you'll remember
fleeing Love you will come back
one day you'll remember
fleeing Love you will come back
And you with the eyes of another color
you tell me the same words of love
in a month or in a year you'll forget them
love that you come you'll flee
in a month or in a year you'll forget them
love that you come you'll flee
come from the sun or frost beaches
lost in November or with summer wind
I've always loved you, I've never loved you
Love you come, Love you go
I've always loved you, I've never loved you
Love you come, Love you go>>.
LISTEN HERE "Onda su onda", Paolo Conte
<<Che notte buia che c'è... povero me, povero me...
che acqua gelida qua, nessuno più mi salverà...
son caduto dalla nave son caduto
mentre a bordo c'era il ballo...
Onda su onda
il mare mi porterà
alla deriva,
in balia di una sorte bizzarra e cattiva...
onda su onda,
mi sto allontanando ormai...
la nave è una lucciola persa nel blu...
mai più mi salverò...
Sara, ti sei accorta?
Stai già danzando insieme a lui...
con gli occhi chiusi ti stringi a lui...
Sara... ma non importa...
Stupenda l'isola è... il clima è dolce intorno a me,
ci sono palme e bambù... è un luogo pieno di virtù...
steso al sole ad asciugarmi il corpo e il viso
guardo in faccia il paradiso...
Onda su onda
il mar mi ha portato qui:
ritmi, canzoni,
donne di sogno, banane, lamponi...
onda su onda,
mi sono ambientato ormai...
il naufragio mi ha dato la felicità che tu
non mi sai dar...
Sara, ti sei accorta?
Tu stai danzando insieme a lui...
con gli occhi chiusi ti stringi a lui...
Sara... ma non importa...>>.
"Wave upon wave"
<<Dark night that there ... poor me, poor me ...
that cold water here, no one will save me ...
I have fallen I have fallen from the ship
while on board was the dance ...
Wave upon wave
the sea will take me
drifting
the mercy of a bizarre and bad luck ...
wave upon wave,
I'm moving away now ...
the ship is a firefly lost in blue ...
never again I will be saved ...
Sara, have you noticed?
you're already dancing with him ...
eyes closed you hold him ...
Sara ... but no matter ...
The island is wonderful ... the weather is sweet around me
are palm trees and bamboo ... is a place full of virtue ...
lying in the sun to dry the body and face
look into the face of heaven ...
Wave upon wave
Sea brought me here:
rhythms, songs,
dream women, bananas, raspberries ...
wave upon wave,
I'm settled now ...
wreck has given me the happiness that you
you can't give me
Sara, have you noticed?
You're dancing with him ...
eyes closed you hold him ...
Sara ... but no matter ...>>.
In a few hours I will take a flight back to Istanbul after 5 weeks. Things there have changed a lot. I don't have a place, for instance. But some good friend will host me. Then some people decided to go, to get out of my life. Farewell, in any case.
Probably I will watch the city for the first time as a place which could be not mine anymore. Maybe I will feel a stranger, and it would be the first time after so long. I don't know. Maybe I will watch Istanbul as a love to conquer again and for this reason she will seem even more beautiful to me. Since november 2008 I have never spent so much time far from Istanbul. In any case, this 5 weeks trip through Europe signs the end of an era and a new beginning. Every new beginning is marked by a big backpack full of stuff. Like a turtle I am back to live with all of my things on my shoulders, changing bed every few days, dreaming of a roots ground that maybe really doesn't exist.
I had 2 songs in my mind in these weeks. There's one thing which unites both of them: a kind of relaxed fatalism. They are both old songs from 2 great Italian songwriters, Fabrizio De Andrè and Paolo Conte.
LISTEN HERE "Amore che vieni, amore che vai", Fabrizio De Andrè.
<<Quei giorni perduti a rincorrere il vento
a chiederci un bacio e volerne altri cento
un giorno qualunque li ricorderai
amore che fuggi da me tornerai
un giorno qualunque ti ricorderai
amore che fuggi da me tornerai
e tu che con gli occhi di un altro colore
mi dici le stesse parole d'amore
fra un mese fra un anno scordate le avrai
amore che vieni da me fuggirai
fra un mese fra un anno scordate le avrai
amore che vieni da me fuggirai
venuto dal sole o da spiagge gelate
perduto in novembre o col vento d'estate
io t' ho amato sempre , non t' ho amato mai
amore che vieni , amore che vai
io t' ho amato sempre , non t' ho amato mai
amore che vieni , amore che vai>>.
"Love you come, love you go".
<<Those days lost chasing the wind
to ask for a kiss and wanting another hundred
one day you'll remember
fleeing Love you will come back
one day you'll remember
fleeing Love you will come back
And you with the eyes of another color
you tell me the same words of love
in a month or in a year you'll forget them
love that you come you'll flee
in a month or in a year you'll forget them
love that you come you'll flee
come from the sun or frost beaches
lost in November or with summer wind
I've always loved you, I've never loved you
Love you come, Love you go
I've always loved you, I've never loved you
Love you come, Love you go>>.
LISTEN HERE "Onda su onda", Paolo Conte
<<Che notte buia che c'è... povero me, povero me...
che acqua gelida qua, nessuno più mi salverà...
son caduto dalla nave son caduto
mentre a bordo c'era il ballo...
Onda su onda
il mare mi porterà
alla deriva,
in balia di una sorte bizzarra e cattiva...
onda su onda,
mi sto allontanando ormai...
la nave è una lucciola persa nel blu...
mai più mi salverò...
Sara, ti sei accorta?
Stai già danzando insieme a lui...
con gli occhi chiusi ti stringi a lui...
Sara... ma non importa...
Stupenda l'isola è... il clima è dolce intorno a me,
ci sono palme e bambù... è un luogo pieno di virtù...
steso al sole ad asciugarmi il corpo e il viso
guardo in faccia il paradiso...
Onda su onda
il mar mi ha portato qui:
ritmi, canzoni,
donne di sogno, banane, lamponi...
onda su onda,
mi sono ambientato ormai...
il naufragio mi ha dato la felicità che tu
non mi sai dar...
Sara, ti sei accorta?
Tu stai danzando insieme a lui...
con gli occhi chiusi ti stringi a lui...
Sara... ma non importa...>>.
"Wave upon wave"
<<Dark night that there ... poor me, poor me ...
that cold water here, no one will save me ...
I have fallen I have fallen from the ship
while on board was the dance ...
Wave upon wave
the sea will take me
drifting
the mercy of a bizarre and bad luck ...
wave upon wave,
I'm moving away now ...
the ship is a firefly lost in blue ...
never again I will be saved ...
Sara, have you noticed?
you're already dancing with him ...
eyes closed you hold him ...
Sara ... but no matter ...
The island is wonderful ... the weather is sweet around me
are palm trees and bamboo ... is a place full of virtue ...
lying in the sun to dry the body and face
look into the face of heaven ...
Wave upon wave
Sea brought me here:
rhythms, songs,
dream women, bananas, raspberries ...
wave upon wave,
I'm settled now ...
wreck has given me the happiness that you
you can't give me
Sara, have you noticed?
You're dancing with him ...
eyes closed you hold him ...
Sara ... but no matter ...>>.
Here above in Naples with Özgü.
My working place in Adelfia at my parent's house.
Here above with Armando and Talasi at stazione Termini in Rome.
Here above at De Andrè's exposition at Ara Pacis in Rome with Özgü.
This unforgettable terrace in Rome where once upon a time I used to live.
Here above hanging around in Rome.
Some melancholic pictures of winter in Dresden.
